Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct
4. An example of masochistic ideas follows: “She” is a peasant
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woman,—a rough, tall, large-boned woman of forty or fifty years. She
is the possessor of a small, remote farm, which she works with the
help of her slave alone. The work begins before sunrise. At four
o’clock in the morning she opens the shed where she has kept me shut
up over night, and wakens me, as I lie on the ground, with a kick;
then she leads me out and harnesses me to a milk-cart bound for town.
She leads me by a halter, and urges me along. On the road she gets on
the heavily-loaded wagon, and sleeps until the destination is reached.
There, in the open market-place of the town, still harnessed to the
wagon, I lie down on the bare ground to rest. Those passing knock
against me or step on me, without giving me any attention. After the
stock is sold, we start homeward. After a short rest the work begins
again, always under the direction of the mistress, who holds me by the
halter and urges me on. At seven or eight o’clock at night I am put up
to rest, and sleep until the next morning, when the same thing begins
again. Work and blows, blows and work; no pleasure, no recreation, day
in and day out!
Another time I fancy myself in the _rôle_ of a paid lover of an
elderly female _roué_, who makes use of me, sexually, in the most
reckless manner; and in this direction makes the most shameful demands
on me. If I do not submit to these willingly, I am beaten and
punished; and, at the same time, she despises me unspeakably; gives me
the lowest housework to do; and on every occasion shows me how low an
opinion she has of my manhood.
I cannot clothe the character of masochism in any better formula than
the following: A real masochist, without reflection, prefers the kick
of a low woman to the embrace of a Venus.
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